Thursday, 16 February 2012

a smiley stare...





I waited there for a stare...
For a smile...
But she went past eyes looking down...
The lost moment...

The grace in her walks...
Those impeccant and deep eyes....
That round angel like face...
I was a moth drawn to the flame...

The Caliban I am...
Masochistic....
Let the angel fly away....
For she has all the high heavens to roam...
Let she be in the upper echelons and stare at me with a smile....

Wednesday, 8 February 2012

sky's laugh...





The night was chilling...
Eye in the sky, bloodshot...
Its hallow giving it an eerie feel...
The dark cloud over the eye revealed, sky’s insomnia...

Sky saw the owl’s silent flight...
And its ignorant prey...
A meander zigzagged down the earth...
Its water destined to the great pool...

Sky saw the night life of erect beings...
The self claimed rulers of the muddy ball...
And their shallow dreams and evil plays...
They can’t see the big frame of life...

The nocturnal rulers busy in their twisted plans...
Feeling as if no one sees their frauds...
Sky laughed at them...
And the nocturnal beings heard a thunder...

Thursday, 2 February 2012

give me the strength...





In this lonely road...
Am without a resolute...
My beliefs strangled...
And am without a walking stick...

Expectations crushing me...
Their weight wearing me...
My shoulders weakening...
My smiling facade withering...

I wish to throw them away...
But then I hurt the ones who love me the most...
I’ve justifications; But meaningless...
I can’t do it; neither can I walk anymore...

Give me an ambition...
So I can tear the veil of predictions upon me...
Give me the vision...
So I can find my calling...
Give me the strength...
So I can rise above everything....

Saturday, 28 January 2012

repetitions....





Distant crackling of fireworks.
Neighbour’s voices of laughter..
The cool thickness of air...
Me sitting amid them....

Some are celebrating a festival.
He is emigrating for a job..
The night is dark and cold...
I am alone and my mind filled with mixed emotions....

Tomorrow there won’t be a festival.
Tomorrow he won’t be in his home..
But tomorrow the night would be dark and cold as ever...
And I’ll be sitting alone, along with my crazy mind as usual....

Thursday, 19 January 2012

alley...






She started to get scared. It was half an hour ago when Ben told her to stay here in this dark alley. He went to pick up something. She knows it would be some lovely birthday gift. But there was no sign of him.

“Did something happen to him…” she got anxious.

Then she started to hear voices. Scary ones, behind her. But there was no one. She started walking. The alley seemed too long for her. Her steps picked up speed. As she reaches the end of that wretched alley, from nowhere there was a door there. Confused and anxious she opened it.
There again she was, at the very spot from where she started to walk. The voices become scarier this time and the alley become darker. She ran towards the door. She could feel someone behind her trying to catch her. Her slender legs get tired. She can feel the numbness starting from their end.

“I won’t give up” she decided…

With all her strength she ran. Again there was the door. She swing it open and closed it, shouting

“go away…. Goooo awaaay from me….”

Still there she was at that wretched scary dark alley…..
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“Go away…. Go away….”

“Why is she saying that dad…?”

Claire chimed to her dad. She was visiting the asylum where her dad worked.

“Oh, nothing dear. She is not talking to you. She is just delusional. Come, your mom is waiting for you.”

Warren answered to his curious daughter and picked her up and closed the door to the ward.
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“Go away…. Go away….”

But still the voices continued to reach for her…..

Friday, 6 January 2012

death....





Death always interests me…
Not the after affects, but its aspect…
One second you are alive and the next second you are dead…
Two completely different biological phases separated by a second…
So one fine evening I am thinking about death…
So what’s the difference of lively time and dead time….?
In lively seconds, I will have memories…
When am dead only others will have memories about me…
As I thought about the feeling of being dead, a chill crawl upon me…
The numbness, vacuum, scary darkness of death engulfs my head…
I felt detached from all noises….
My mind starts mimicking my death…
Is this what they call redemption…?
The sense of calm and peace….
So, why everybody is afraid of death…?
Maybe the pain before it, or the thoughts of its after affects…
If there’s nothing like them, maybe there will be more dead than alive…

Monday, 2 January 2012

lost in her voice...





She sang to me…
After a lot of pleas, she sang in my ear…
My favourite song, in her voice…
I always loved its sensual lyrics…
But today, it’s her voice that dominates…
Or is it the emotions behind that voice …
Passion from the depths of her heart came out, tearing those lines….
It was so sharp, intended to my heart and it made that poor thing to bleed…
The longing I felt to her, took to me to trance…
It was so strong and I lost myself in her voice…
I hold her tight, very tight as much as to suffocate….
And we became one….