Tuesday, 26 June 2012

when...





    I roam around this world with all my decoys. The people i met loved me, for they thought those masks are the real me. Or else that love was their act.
    Then one day I walked under the lushness and shade of the green nature, without any of my second skins. People shied away from me as from a taboo. They saw me for what I actually is. They saw the raw ugliness. My skin blistered under those stares. They once advised me to live in reality. And when I show them the reality, they get scared. Paradox...
    Or, are they scared of themselves? Do they saw themselves in me? Do my ugliness reminds them of what resides in them? Are they running away from their own realities? They ran, so they could check on their masks and be sure that those strings are tight. And to be sure that their acts are not disturbed and no one could see the Caliban in them. So they could live in their utopia with their pretty faces and boast about their fake realities. And when someone actually be real, they could crucifix them and call those martyrs a fraud.
    And after a fall they will make monuments for those martyrs and worship them.Thus they could sabotage those real models by corrupting their ideals and faking them according to their unreal world. Realities will get violated and decoyed as sins, so no one will dare to show what's real anymore.
    When would these warring species could stop fighting among themselves and acquire the courage to fight the falseness in their souls? When would they dare to break the cocoon of those fake moralities and show themselves in the glaring sun? When would they start telling the truth? When would they....

Tuesday, 12 June 2012

silent wail...



They say the water of Ganges could cleanse...
A rebirth, attained from a bath with all your sins washed away...
But could it cleanse those memories, regrets...
Oh, how I wish to rejuvenate...

No requiems saved me from this purgatory...
No pleads of remorse heard...
Those sins pull me to irredeemable depths...
My wails unheard, and be amiss...

The pain which I can’t endure is to see what I’ve done...
Carnal pangs hurt me not, but pain in those eyes does...
 Those impeccant souls flown to my fowl...
Oh, their wails; bleed my ears and tear my heart...

This dirt weighing down my course...
My spine bends, and limbs weak...
Oh, how I wish to leave this temple of dirt...
To be nothing, and in peace and to be one with world’s Chi...
At least a crumb of that goodness if any resides in me...

Sunday, 3 June 2012

truth....




Flowing through those current...
Rocks of taboos blocked me...
Their sharp edges cut my skin...
Some gave me big blows...

But the flow to the moore, didn't stop...
The water of my temptations made me flow over those rocks...
I broke some, and I bend some...
Crossed those forbidden lines...
And my mind started prying me with regret...

Did I actually break any...?
Or was it all an illusion...
An illusion to elude you from the truth, the moore...
My freedom lies in accepting those truths...
And now am starting to see clearly...
Know that this flow is normal, human...
Let yourself free; don't fight it...
Now am starting to accept those truths....

Sunday, 13 May 2012

restrained...



On a bed of roses, I lay...
Their fragrance, burning my nostrils...
Restrained by chains of hearts...
Their beats reverberating in my eardrums, bleeding them...

I am pampered, but my freedom limited...
Have everything in reach, but am chained...
Why, oh why, those chainrings have to be hearts...?
Why, oh why, my heart is not hard enough to break them...?

I sense one of those rings, so soft...
Will bleed itself and break, just to see me glee...
But I won’t let it to be so masochistic, nor am I a sadist...
So I lay there for those hearts....
But, how long can I endure....?

Sunday, 6 May 2012

a fallen angel...



A mother, a fallen angel...
Left in the woods, with her spawns...
Her right wing cut off, and none to lend a hand...
What of unholy treacheries thrown her to this Moore...?
Which of the deities got jealous of her little heaven...?
Or was it fate’s way to make her strong...?

Strong she became, for her tiddlers...
They were her, bow of a fiddler...
She made them her aim of life...
And thoughts of them were her knife...
With it, she made a shelter in those litter...
And came out of woods with such a glitter...

Now she has an aim in life and now she knows how to attain that...
Working her way against those odds, with the strength of her petite hands...
Stern in mind as not to cry, when she heard any filthy pry...
Her will made those kids be safe and no sadness engulfs their eyes...

Her skin may be the tint of coal, but her heart is of diamond gleam...
She can’t beat any nymphs in looks, but none could beat her beauty of mind...
With all that love and with all that will,
One day she’ll reclaim those glory hills...


PS: the picture is done by one of my best friends... Hazel Fernandez... Thanks to u hazel for such a wonderful art...

Sunday, 29 April 2012

the actual me...



I was returning to my home after some shopping. At a three way junction, two roads lead to my place. Hmmm... Which one should I take? The one to my right is in a better condition. The one to my left is a shortcut, but it’s in a really bad state. So I decided to ride through the better one, and I was not in a hurry too. That’s when I first noticed it. I thought my eye was tricking me. But I was sure that I actually saw it.
There was another me taking the left road. How’s that possible? Maybe I just saw someone wearing same type of my dress, and riding the same model of my bike, and have a similar body language of mine. Well it could be possible. After all they say that there are 7 people like you in the world. Hmmm... or is it 9? Whatever...
I continued my riding, and after some time I forget about the other me. When I reached in front of a mobile recharging shop, I recalled that my prepaid balance is getting low. Hmmm... Should I recharge it now? I will have to make some calls when I reach home. There were 2 missed call alert in my mobile. So I stopped there to topup my prepaid balance. Then again it happened.
Another version of me continued his riding without stopping there. Aaarrrggghhh.... What the hell is this? Am I going delusional? There is no way that 2 of 7 (or is it 2 of 9...? whatever) in the like list went past me in an interval of 10 minutes. There is something freaky going on here.
Thinking of this I continued my ride. There is a national highway before my place, and I’ve cross it. When I get there, a car was coming from a right, through the highway. Should I cross the NH before the car? Well there were no other vehicles coming and the car was in a slow pace. I crossed the NH before the car. After I crossed, curiosity got the better of me. I checked the rear view mirror only to see another version of me waiting the car to pass, to cross the NH.
Holy crap... Then a whim passed to through me. Whenever I’m taking a decision am creating a new universe, in which a different version of me taking the other choice of the decision. I’m seeing those universes. Parallel universes. And I’m creating them. Or the other version of me is creating this universe in which I exist.  Wow... well in that perspective could I be god? After all I’m creating universes here, aren’t I? Is it about this, which they say like “god resides in your inside”? Hmmm... How many universes have I created this day? How many decisions did I make? And how many universes did the other versions of me would have created parallel to their universes? Wow... it’s going exponential.
To where, are my thoughts taking me? And at last when I reached my home, one question remained. Who’s the actual me?

Wednesday, 25 April 2012

rotten...



The wooden bridge spanned there...
Connecting that old road across the banks...
Young but obsolete in design, faded to memories, forgotten...
Watching its contemporary kins fulfilling their calling...
Evaluating the purpose of its own existence...

It’s too late to revive those wooden boards and stands...
Attempts to give it more support went vein...
Those aiding bases gave the inner termites more to feed upon...
Gave them more reason to get obese and weaken its strength...
Adding dead weight to what it remains of once a glorious span...

Praying even for a nomad or a loner to cross over it...
Just to remember its role in the world...
To go back to those old days, at least in its memoirs...
But none came... none heard its weak creaks...
Can’t even collapse on its own without a big blow...
It spanned there... weakened... rotting away of termites...
Dreaming of redemption....